Do you remember when all you wanted was what you’ve got now?
I read this in random internet quotes pretty much every day. And sometimes I remember to give thanks, and sometimes I just forget.
Because, now that I’ve come to mention it, yes I do remember, but I don’t always take the time to acknowledge it. And isn’t that a shame.
We are wired to be forgetful. Or maybe it would be better to say that we’re wired to be over-demanding. Always striving for the next thing rather than basking in the glory of having achieved our goals. But the thing is, we can do both!
There was a time when all I wanted was to not have to “go to work”. As an employee. I thought that if I could be independent, I’d be the happiest girl alive. All I wanted was to write in my own time and be paid for it. And now it does happen. And on the freelance roller coaster, it does occur a fair amount of time.
I am independent. And, yes I am incredibly happy about it. But I’d be even happier if I could do more. So I spend a lot of the time that I could dedicate to being happy to worrying. About being less productive than I should be. About feeling more relaxed than I should feel. About not being overwhelmed with tasks and drowning under unread briefs and tight deadlines.
There have been so many things I’ve begged the universe to make happen, and for the most part, the universe has delivered, but I’m not sure I’ve really given it the credit it’s due.
Today I want to take a moment to notice that the precise outcome I wanted has come about.
Thank you, universe. You’ve been so kind to me!